As I tried to identify the problem I thought about many matters, and after 2-3 days I have come to some replies.
Walk away from the crutches, even if its your Very Best friend
I am lucky enough to have a great best friend in San Diego. But, it's crucial that you be aware of when you have to walk your own path. Often times, we lean on the shoulders of the others, and in the process, forget to learn what we should learn how to do ourselves. By way of example, I'm constantly hanging out together with him, and we play video games. This is great fun, but lately after our LA trip I've felt a sense of waste after enjoying matches. So I flashed my Heroes of the Storm bnet account and now I have a lot more free time in my hands. So the lesson is, find out if you have to come up with your own strength, and also have the guts to walk away from the very best friend. He/she will know, that you will need the time to yourself to create inner strength.
I have also discovered that my daytime pick up skills are better, and that I tend to do much better on my own. Sometimes, you have to go out there and watch the world for yourself, instead of resenting others for"holding you back", when in fact, you are the one that's doing it!
Viewing the silver lining in all
As a kid, I used to think that if I am learning the piano at the afternoon, all the other kids are out there playing at the golden sunset! No! I felt a feeling of loss! Yet, nowadays, I'm grateful on some nights when I could just be at work and function to my heart content. Only me and my job. Occasionally I might feel like this is lonely and perhaps it is, but that's the way it is for today, and I've learned to see it as a blessing, I get to hangout with my friends once I want to, and possess my own time without being stressed by work or personal duties.
Being trendy with no"trying"
I have leverage the ability to be present thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I have discovered that when I am relaxed and unstressed, I have a open vibe. People talk to me personally. "What is that you're buying?" I believe that on weekdays, since many individuals are stressed, an unstressed, open energy contrasts nicely compared to all of the pent up energy that people see everyday. I'm fortunate enough to have financial freedom at this stage in my entire life, and that I shall continue to channel a cool, open vibe, even though I am working hard on the job.
Presence, and inner love
Being"chill" also signifies non-judgement. When we judge other people, in certain ways we're also coping with our own demons. This is maybe one of the universal truths of all religions (that has been murdered by religious dogma). Your own presence of light is enough -- which alone can sustain you and add love to the world. Occasionally our ego gets in the way, and blinds us out of the spark and magnificent of what is already there to start with.
Strive for the finest, judgement free of others
I used to judge others or"despise on them" when they are useless to my goals. I realized this is the incorrect way to look at the world. Everybody is on their own journey. In a subtelne oznaki zainteresowania lot of ways, my negativity towards them was really at myself -- at my own inability to make things function. I must have sought out help sooner, or recognized that I needed to meet new people, instead of resenting my pals. You can't always change someone, however you could always adore them.
It's okay to be an asshole, sometimes our mistakes instruct us how to arrive at the right solution Or reach a stage of approval, I had to go through pain. The pain makes it possible to reach a point (ideally ) of throwing away the bags of the ego.
Intimate relationships, savor all the life has to offer. Drink from the fountain
While I used to select the hottest girls, I want the deepest connections in all areas of my own life. Am I still drawn to beautiful ladies? Absolutely. However, my fascination now is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing attraction for superficial beauty, and much more in tune with inner beauty.
I'm still drawn sexually to shallow beauty, but in terms of my connections as well as an-ongoing type of situation, I see myself valuing a beautiful girl with great inner qualities as well.
